Thursday, January 04, 2007
After reading some blog posts, i am now filled with much thoughts and inspiration to write again! abit long n hard to digest.
Oh, unbelieving generation!
As i was reading the lord just revealed to me a passage from the bible and that was exactly how the lord felt, and how i felt:
This is what happen after Jesus was crucified n ressurected n appeared to his other disciples (except Thomas):
John 20:24-31Now Thomas (called Didymus), one of the Twelve, was not with the disciples when Jesus came. So the other disciples told him, "We have seen the Lord!"
But he said to them,
"Unless I see the nail marks in his hands and put my finger where the nails were, and put my hand into his side, I will not believe it." A week later his disciples were in the house again, and Thomas was with them. Though the doors were locked, Jesus came and stood among them and said, "Peace be with you!" Then he said to Thomas,
"Put your finger here; see my hands. Reach out your hand and put it into my side. Stop doubting and believe." Thomas said to him, "My Lord and my God!"
Then Jesus told him, "Because you have seen me, you have believed; blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed."
Yes, Thomas, Jesus' 12, one of the chosen ones to follow Jesus, doubted Jesus even though he witnessed Jesus' ministry and miracles. n Jesus had to appear before him, stretch his nail pierced hands for Thomas fingers to go through before Thomas believed that Jesus has resurrected and is the son of God.
"tsk tsk tsk...aiyoh.. this Thomas ah..." many would have these kind of reactions.
Oh well. how many times have we fallen into this kind of spiritual trap. Where we challenge God, when we tempted God, when we TESTED GOD! yet, he never fail to show up, coz he loves us so much that he want us to know that he is there, always. he is real.
How many times have you hear that "Jesus Love You" or "You are precious to him" or "He has a purpose in you" or "you are wonderfully and fearfully made" and yet, you reject that because Jesus never appear to you?
How many times have you heard that "Prayer is a powerful weapon" or "Prayer never fails" or "God hears every of your prayers even when u whisper to him" or "God loves to talk to you" or "God has plans for every of your prayers" and yet, you doubt everytime you pray?
Does this actually sounds familiar?
"God, i will believe you if you show me __________ or __________?"
"God, if you are real, give me __________!"
"God, if you really love me, you will ___________."
Have faith! Walk by faith and not by SIGHT of him.
Sometimes people say that they losing faith, coz they dont FEEL god's presence. Well, I don't FEEL god's presence everyday as well, BUT i do have faith that his presence goes everywhere with me. Faith to know that every step i make is watched by God, and i just walk by Faith, i do not need to feel his presence every moment. I
know His presence. That's the difference i believe.
Sometimes people say that "wah, i asked God to do ________ for me today, and he did! his presence is really strong. He's really there." and when they ask god to do something else other days and God didn't then they start accussing God don't love them, God is not present, God is not real.
Sometimes people say that "the worship is not happening today" or "no mood to worship" or "not touched by the worship" - its all about the heart of worship. (talk about this next time)
WOW. I am quite impressed by these people of God actually. coz one moment when things are going well, they praise the lord, when things are rocky, they blame the lord. Yet, the lord still loves them. unconditionally.
For me, when things are rocky, i trust that jesus is walking right beside me, catching me if i fall. infact, carrying me when i could walk no more. I trust that he will make things better for me, and i have to go through, such that his name can be glorified through me, I have faith in his plans.
I know i am nobody to judge, but i am really sadden. Pardon me. I am not writing about anyone, just some thoughts.
But, Well. if upon reading my blog, take it as a reflection, and u r convicted by holy spirit, please go repent. Dont grieve the holy spirit.
STOP DOUBTING, START BELIEVING!!!
Monday, January 01, 2007
5, 4, 3, 2..... 1!
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
I bet people are giving up on reading my blog since there are no updates. Been really busy at work and in church last december. MOL, youth camp, christmas, cell advance, new yr bash party.... phew! its all over, but man, i really enjoyed myself alot this year!
actually havent blog for sometime made me really lazy coz i dunno where to start.
I was not at the youth camp coz it falls on 3 weekdays and i can't take leave. though i was at work, i constantly received sms about what is happening there, esp what my girls are doing. hahaha... especially on the night where pastor adrian shared about the forgiveness, the family held hands, put down their pride and prayed for forgiveness to each other. amazing, how god gonna work through this family. :)
nothing much to write about. all the joy are indescribable. too overwhelming.
the box of love that m family gave me.. i really love it. thank u all for the effort.
the little lamb book, do use it as devotional book. go to the secret garden everyday.
really dunno what to write. hee!
victory in 2007 people!!
Happy Birthday to SIokyit! :)
Seems like everyone is drowning with homework and work...
