as promised. the little cute kaiyee on my dad's vintage (about 10 years ago?)

well.. today's post is not about kaiyee.. is about the story behind this vintage car.

I dunno what brand is this car.. definately not merc, honda, toyota.. but i can still vividly remember its car plate no. 5620. hmmm.. isnt this car gorgeous? (though i din think it was last time) Hmm... this is the car that embarass me totally as i sat in it. coz the whole world will stare and take photo - without permission of coz. haha. ohhh.. n my very lovely dad will be very glad to sound the "elephant-sound-alike" horn which was..DUH!! awful! if u know how a elephant sounds like.. u can image how i felt. hahahaaa... that car was his pride... he loves to drive that, even though its SLOW n NO aircon. we often end up sweating in the car. but yet.. he invested 10+k on the sound system of a lau-ya car.. crazy u may say.. haha. that's him..

oh.. back to the car.. dunno how to describe. u all just see it n imagine. it functions differently from the cars we see nowadays. the horn, the shape, the lock systems, the car ignition etc etc...

anyone has any info about this car PLEASE CALL ME.. it have been sold to dunno who.. and i'm looking for it! the entire singapore only has 2 such cars.

i hope to get married in this car!! soooooo... help me keep a lookout~


Love...

and i stand in awe of your love

This 'Quan Jia Fu' is almost perfect. with the absence of my beloved mother

I did not come from a perfect family... and so i did not believe that perfect family existed. Every family has its own problems, and we cannot choose which family we want to be in, therefore, don't complain and compare your family with other families... God has a reason why he placed u in that family. However, now i believe that there is a PERFECT family.. the family of God which i have already 'chop' a place

here's a little intro about my family

As u can see, the tallest guy in our family is my brother, Kaisheng. He is 19 years old, studying in Temasak Poly. He used to be very fat but now he grew very tall so that balanced everything. haha! I used to quarel with him everyday... and always bully him. He grew up in his nanny's place. only until 7 yrs old then he came home, so he grew very attached to his nanny's family instead of his own family. As years goes by, he has his own mind, and slowly we talk lesser... ice was built between us.. and i pray that i will have the strength to break the ice! pray with me..

Kaiyee - from the name, surely u can tell that she's my sister. n guess what! she's 10 years younger than me! very cute girl who is considered very matured at her age. can be attitude at times.. just like me. opps! when she was younger she very cute one. let me go find some pic to post. hee.. sometimes when i'm sad.. i'll just flip thru her photo albums. its really cute...

Next is Bobilia n Denzel. Bobi is my step sister, denzel is her son, that makes Denzel my nephew. Got it? Bobi is very much older then us... (guess that time my dad very 'bu dong shi') well, we lost contact for abt 20 years and finally met up again at my mummy's funeral. SInce then till now, our relationship is good and she takes care of my family too.. oOOooo... she can talk alot man! Denzel is pretty much very quiet unless he really knows u, but he is very polite and likeable. look at his cheeks... feel like pinching him right? mind u.. those big lumps are not fats.. those are muscles!

Lastly - my very CUTE DAD! hmmm.. this is one man that fears nothing. he is the man who uses his loudest voice to scream at me, scolded me, chased me around the house to whack me, embarass me(till now he still do, not purposely though), made me kneel for hours as punishment etc.. But yet at the same time, this is the man who love me most. in times when i get bullied, he will 'revenge' for me (seldom hor.. who dare!), in those days when i couldn't sleep, he will drive me to the balestier bak kut teh to eat, days when i am late for school and scared to go into the school gates, he will bring me for breakfast - err.. then my mother will scold him...

hmmm.. i miss those days when we go supper every night, teochew porridge and bak kut teh is his favourite. i miss those days where he will cheer whenever it rained.. coz he loves to bring me on his motorcycle and drive me around in the rain. i miss those days when he 'haolian' his vintage car and smirking all the way. i miss so many things about him... He's still around.. dun worry, just that he has lost some of his confidence, lost some of his smiles, lost some of his fighting spirit. I will continue to pray for him, i want to see my hero standing on his feet, smiling at me. I believe he can do it!

missing my mum...

Hey peeps.. heres a 2 cent thought from me. U don't know when ur family has to leave, cherish them while they are still around. Forgive those who had hurt u, and trust me, when u release forgiveness to your family, your life will be transformed. Like when i forgive my dad, for all the things he had done to me, i became able to love him and all those embarassing moments became a good laugh. bonds will be strengthen, when u choose to forgive... i've learnt my lesson - not loving my mum.. but that doesnt hold me down, i dun look back n regret anymore. i move on to love my dad, when he is still here... its hard, but i put in effort...

please CHERISH what u have

and i stand in awe of your love

what???? one in seven thousand!! i went to the doctor just now regarding my jaw. i have problem opening my jaw, every time when i open my mouth wide, a "clack" noise will be produced and its painful. basically its called locked-jaws, its a problem of my skull and the jaw bones. been having this problem since young but nv sought any medical advice till today as it's getting on my nerves lately. doctor says there's practically no cure for it so "just live with it" duh.. he gave another option. which is an operation. to re-do the jaws. where they will use wires, bolts n nuts.. and i dunno what... and have to live on fluid food for months. nevermind abt it.. coz this option is not an option at all lor. costly, painful and crazy!

happy easter sunday!!

Sat - thumbs up! @ hua yi sec..
had a fantastic class. 1E3. jasmine, christine, siokyit was there with me too.. the students are just so cute la. makan at jurong pt after TU! then went to watch Eight Below. a show about 8 huskys left behind at the atlantic by their trainers due to a snow storm. after 150 days, their trainer went back to look for them only to find 6 dogs still alive. nice show. well trained dogs.. very cute. n heart-warming.

Good friday! - sentosa
Man.. had a great day at sentosa!! full of energy and laughters, crazy games, crazy people. 25 ppl turned up.. though it rained heavily, i believe everyone enjoyed themself. during the storm, we took shelter at the tower, but we continue to play games like chop chilli chop, sha-fan-sha, etc.. Lynette did a very good job leading us to some games. n when i ask her "how's school" she ans me "we are better friends now" i almost laugh till pengz.. think only i understand why she said that. oh ya.. we had tourists taking video of us! haha.. luckily the sun is not strong so i was not burned (heng ahz). rained stopped. they played captain ball in the water, while i look after the bags. all very sporting!!! then sharing. kelvin and i shared testimony, dy shared word.. overall~ happening!!!
Dinner @ mac with fengru, shermaine and peiqi. they are sooooooo funny. esp shermaine. i love her reaction and her laughters man. just watching her is hilarious already. they can laugh about everything they see.. a guy with silky long hair, toilets, etc..

no photos yet. will upload soon!!

and i stand in awe of your love

last saturday
did backup singing for shane's beatty bb boys enrolement service. fun! along the way when i was running to meet jaz, i saw these lovely panels. fabic of nations, exhibited in HDB hub. colourful, beautiful pieces of art pieces, pieced together. inspite of my lateness.. i stood there admiring those lovely things and took some photos too! found out later that that exhibition has already been there for some time. guess i was just sua ku..

headed for chinatown. wong shih yaw's art exhibition. the christian art gallery i talked abt in my previous post? its truely awesome. i wish i have the money to buy the drawings back to my tiny home or rather i wish i can draw as well as he did. he exhibited about 15 pieces of art, each of its own uniqueness. spent about an hour there trying to figure out the meaning of those biblical art. some of those he painted are the prodigal son, little king david, jonah n the whale, lord's supper, little faith thomas - all these are what i name his drawings. not the actual names of the art...very nice. i was told by little lamb that there will be another christian art exhibition at the end of the year. this time it will be a compilation of many artist... i'm waiting for it~

ice age 2 is cool.. poly open cell outing. thought only one new fren came. i just wanna affirm the poly ppl that god honors what u all have been doing. do not give up hope, do not extinguish the fire u have... this first fren is only the beginning... bless u all! jia you!

sunday
Service was good. pastor's joe sermon on DARE TO DREAM is really encouraging. lets dream dreams for god and believe that god will make ur dreams come true. is there anything that u think it is impossible to happen? that u dun even dare think about it? if there is..god wanna tell u that he is able to do things far more then u can imagine! trust him~

SSOC - attendance was unexpected. huimin n i actually expected little ppl. coz their own family may have other events. but guess what? god heard me.. and eventually all of them are able to make it! praise the lord. we will reap this mighty harvest. if the lord is with us, who can go against us? *smiling with victory*

took some neo prints with the 4 naughty girls @ bugis...

monday - back to work!
watch 'keeping mum' with dy...i was told it's a comedy coz 'mr bean' is the leading actor but its actually a show abt a crazy mother going ard killing ppl. luckily no crude and bloody sceens. however, coz in the show, mr bean is a pastor. and actually i think god brought me to watch the show. i was brought to Isaiah 55:8 'For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways. As the heavens are higher then the earth, so are my ways higher then your ways and my thoughts then your thoughts" Indeed.. he is almighty, his ways are so much higher, even more then what we can imagine. so... dun live ur way.. live God's way.

Today - good day coz no OT but i'm stuck with blogging. frustrating! office open cell only 5 people came, n we bought too much food. but nvm next week will be better. thanks deepa for the yummy curry chicken!

and i stand in awe of your love

many things to write over the weekend. no time to do so. will post it tomorrow if possible.. stay tunned!!

and i stand in awe of your love

Some things to share tonight. have a great, fun n blessed weekend everyone.


do you ever have any 'what if' thoughts plague your mind, such as 'what if i jump off the building?" "what if my parents die?" "what if i can't be successful?" "what if i................?"

have u ever has "if only" thoughts that make u miserable? such as "if only i hadn't done that" "if only i had been there, this wouldnt have happened" "if only i wouldn't have said those words to that person" "if only..................."

do u ever have self-punishing thoughts? such as "no one loves me" "no one cares about me" "i'm such a failure" "i'm good for nothing" "i'm stupid" "i'm not attractive" "i'm................."

if u had thoughts like any of these mentioned above, please know that this is not god speaking into your life. this is the enermy of ur soul trying to gain control of your mind.

difficult times do happen, but too often we suffer unneccessarily because of lies we believe about ourselves and our situations. we accept as fact the words that are spoken by an enermy who wants us destroyed.

we can become fearful, depressed, lonely, angry, doubtful, confused insecure, hopeless, beaten down, worried, and discouraged all because of lies we believe.

the good news is that we can overcome each one of these lies with prayer, the truth of God's word, and with praise to God. yeah~!!

:)
*i miss my mum, sisters and daughters!*

and i stand in awe of your love

and i stand in awe of your love

hmmm..

office open cell. let's welcome the new members. that makes a total of 10 members currently. i believe there will be more to come. till one day, boss' room will over flow to the BIG conference room and all the strategic fish tanks and trees will be removed! hallelujah!


today, i had a rare chance to wait for the train for 6 mins early in the morning. i sat there pondering on some past. i rem i used to have this habit of sitting alone at eunos mrt platform for hours, seeing the trains passing by, enjoying the breeze, spending time with myself. now, i hardly even have that kinda of chance again. every second becomes precious. time is flying pass, its faster then i can imagine, faster then i am. I've used up one-third a human's average lifespan in school. am working the next one-third.

I was wondering. what kind of person i will be, if i had not accepted Jesus as my lord. Will i still be crying to sleep every night? Will i still be struggling to earn money, giving loads of tuition and falling sick due to over working? will i still be living in my own miserable world? a world full of darkness and hopelessness, a world that nobody cares, nobody loves...

I really thank GOD that he made me new and that his love is new every morning.

Until i took the step of FAITH, hope and love came alive in my life.

Today entry is thanksgiving to my lord, thank you for saving me and dying for me.

He has to die, so that we can live.


With a thanksgiving heart..
I bless all of u!

and i stand in awe of your love

A Tribute To All The Ladies Out There...

ONE FLAW IN WOMEN

By the time the Lord made woman, he was into His sixth day of working overtime.An angel appeared and said, "Why are you spending so much time on this one?"And the Lord answered, "Have you seen My spec sheet on her? She has to be completely washable, but not plastic, have over 200 movable parts, all replaceable and able to run on diet coke and leftovers, have a lap that can hold four children at on! e time, have a kiss that can cure anything from a scraped knee to a broken heart -- and she will do everything with only two hands."

The angel was astounded at the requirements. "Only two hands!? No way!And that's just on the standard model? That's too much work for one day.Wait until tomorrow to finish."" But I won't," the Lord protested. "I am so close to finishing this creation that is so close to My own heart. She already heals herself when she is sick AND can work 18 hour days."

The angel moved closer and touched the woman. "But you have made her so soft, Lord.""She is soft," the Lord agreed, "but I have also made her tough. You have no idea what she can endure or accomplish.""Will she be able to think?", asked the angel.The Lord replied, "Not only will she be able to think, she will be able to reason and negotiate."

The angel then noticed something, and reach! ing out, touched the woman's cheek. "Oops, it looks like you have a leak in this model. I told you that you were trying to put too much into this one.""That's not a leak," the Lord corrected, "that's a tear!""What's the tear for?" the angel asked.The Lord said, "The tear is her way of expressing her joy, her sorrow, her pain, her disappointment, her love, her loneliness, her grief and her pride."The angel was impressed. "You are a genius, Lord.. You thought of everything! Woman is truly amazing."And she is!

Women have strengths that amaze men. They bear hardships and they carry burdens, but they hold happiness, love joy.They smile when they want to scream. They sing when they want to cry. They cry when they are happy and laugh when they are nervous. They fight for what they believe in. They stand up to injustice. They don't take "no" for an answer when they believe there is a better solution. They go without so their family can have.They go to the doctor with a frig! htened friend. They love unconditionally. They cry when their children excel and cheer when their friends get awards. They are happy when they hear about a birth or a wedding. Their hearts break when a friend dies. They grieve at the loss of a family member, yet they are strong when they think there is no strength left. They know that a hug and a kiss can help to heal a broken heart.Women come in all sizes, in all colors and shapes. They'll drive, fly, walk, run, or e-mail you to show how much they care about you.The heart of a woman is what makes the world keep turning! They bring joy and hope. They have compassion and ideals.They give moral support to their family and friends. Women have vital things to say and everything to give.

However if there's one flaw in women, it is that they tend to forget their worth.

and i stand in awe of your love

haha.. let me back date to 30 march 2006.

how can i ever forget such a day like that. i went out with dy's poly-mates. happen that one of them is my primary school friend - ANDY

went to V8 cafe @ bugis for dinner. had a good stomach-aching-laugh when alvin ask calvin(the 1.94m tall guy) "have u wondered why ur eyes are so small?" and everyone of us stared at alvin. then alvin said: "because u are so tall.. u nv need to look up, therefore ur eyes are customed to u.. looking down. when u look up.. the size of ur eyes will X2" wah lao.. that motion all of us started laughing hilariously. logical but yet... hahahaha.....

settler's cafe - our next destination.
we played risk.. that is the first time i play that game. heng i nv perish. coz i dunno who is telling the truth. all i know is that everyone is telling me what to do. i dunno who is my enermy n who is my help. argh! DY won the game eventually. change game to a bang bang game. utterly boring. i dun understand. too chim. nevermind. well..w will still go there again!

Happy belated birthday Andy!


OoOooooo... FCBC Hokkien Sermon Rocks.
http://www.fcbc.org.sg/resources_sermon_main.htm

and i stand in awe of your love

yeah!! today huimin, ivan, taufic, dy, brian, henzy, caiyun, jasper, kaiyee and myself went to west coast park. we begin playing captain ball and my team was trash pathetically. 7-2 was the score. then we played husbands n wives and the obstacle games. FUN!
(think dy did a great job *clap clap*)

serious business came after the fun when we had brief discussion about the open cell.

went to kelly's grandpa wake. now home blogging.

tomorrow's gonna be an exciting day tomorrow.

It's the last SOL 2 lesson... graduated le! hahahahaaa...

BNJL144 mtg - tomorrow gonna see many new faces and rem new names. exciting! should be fun n will have a great time tomorrow!

Caiyun n Christine cant come for service :(

last night went chalet. sheryl's baby one yr old party. he is soooOooooo adorable can? so fat and is simply a kai xin guo. he just keeps smiling. and he changed alot from the first time i saw him in hospital; again, time flies. one yr ago.. i saw damien(baby's name) at KK hospital, he was so tanned now he has become a charming prince. sheryl, this baby damien and dillion is god's gifts to you n ur husband.. they will bring u joy! may god bless ur household.

some ppl ask me: "hey ky, why ur blog all christian stuffs one?"

here's my answer: "because... Jesus is in everyday of my life, in everystep i make, in every breathe i take... and it will not leave me coz god lives in me. and everyday i am amazed by his awesome grace given to me and stunned by his amazing works in many lives. that's why i cant stop talking abt him lor..."

:)

still... with love

and i stand in awe of your love

kaiyun
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