beautiful message from someone:

One day I decided to quit...I quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality... I wanted to quit my life. I went to the woods to have one last talk with God. "God", I said. "Can you give me one good reason not to quit?" His answer surprised me..."Look around", He said. "Do you see the fern and the bamboo?" "Yes", I replied. "When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took very good care of them. I gave them light. I gave them water. The fern quickly grew from the earth. Its brilliant green covered the floor. Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo. In the second year the Fern grew more vibrant and plentiful. And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo." He said. "In year three there was still nothing from the bamboo seed. But I would not quit. In year four, again, there was nothing from the bamboo seed. I would not quit." He said. "Then in the fifth year a tiny sprout emerged from the earth. Compared to the fern it was seemingly small and insignificant...But just 6 months later the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall. It had spent the five years growing roots. Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive. I would not give any of my creations a challenge it could not handle." He said to me. "Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling, you have actually been growing roots?" "I would not quit on the bamboo. I will never quit on you." "Don't compare yourself to others." He said. "The bamboo had a different purpose than the fern. Yet they both make the forest beautiful." "Your time will come", God said to me. "You will rise high" "How high should I rise?" I asked. "How high will the bamboo rise?" He asked in return. "As high as it can?" I questioned "Yes." He said, "Give me glory by rising as high as you can." I left the forest and bring back this story. I hope these words can help you see that God will never give up on you. He will never give up on you.

and i stand in awe of your love

I may not know what each one of u are going through, but certainly our Father in heaven knows. he knows of your every hapiness, every joy, every pain, every sadness, every anger, every jealous heart, every feeling u have right now. he knows..

let's pray through all the issues in our lives. let's P.U.S.H together!
(P.U.S.H = pray until something happens)

Our father wants us to draw near to him. before he draws near to us.

let fight for victory over every darkness in our lives
tell God how much u need him. to exchange all these pains to happiness.

be it 'qingming fest' that u have to battle the spiritual war, or the 'chocolate eclairs' that made u angry n vulgar, or the happenings at home that is choking u, god knows, god sees, and god can change things - as long as u want him and believe that he can do miracles for u.

prayer is our only weapon against everything. take the weapon n fight the war!
God says: 'Do not be afraid, I am with you'

I pray that god will bless all of u who are reading today's blog. n to those who has a need in ur life, an area u want god to help u in. he is there. ask of him and it shall be given to u.


many blessings....

and i stand in awe of your love

hello everybody. i am here to introduce this excellent art exhibition to you all. this young artist is littlelamb's n mingming's fren. apparently this is his 5th solo exhibit already. i've missed the previous one though.. am definately going for this one. Wong and his wife are both art teacher and they are christians and all his drawing have extracts from the bible or through his personal experience with god. a exhibit worth to go.. really.

by the way. the drawing on this poster has been sold. so i doubt we will get to see that piece of art. for those who are not very good at appreciating art (like me), do not worry, coz Wong will be there to explain his art to u personally :)

Let's go man!! Let me know if u wanna go with me. likely i will go on saturday... call me for more details

Take care...

and i stand in awe of your love

TODAY is sunday! it's church day, it's a happy day!
Sol 2 was good. i picked up the mic n thanked pastor heeguan for some of the words that was taught a few weeks ago. it really helped me alot. hawker closed. no bak kut teh!

Service - FANTASTIC!! matthew 5:1-12
http://www.fcbc.org.sg/resources_sermon_main.htm
this week sermon is still not uploaded yet i think... I encourage u to listen to it. this link will lead u to all the previous fcbc archive sermons, those interested can take a peep.

BN12 shared goals again.. its' important to keep track. if not i forget.
ky's short term goal
- sec sch open cell to be established
- salvations will come from office prayer sessions
- invite 12 frens (ps cesar's challenge)
ky long term goal
- 12 disciple makers to help belle complete her 144

Saturday - stayed home. wash clothes. sweep floor. mop floor. hang clothes. fold clothes. do data entry for dy. hai.. tiring la. its been a long long time since i stayed home to do so much stuffs. kaiyee want to watch movie. 9pm, dy, kaiyee n myself went to PS to watch BIG MOMMA. super funny. laugh - that was all i did... nice show man! neckache after that coz we sat 2nd row from the front... >.< (hey.. i learn to use this face too) Friday - went ktv with zhiwei after work. errm. her ic is still with me! :p great time singing but time went really fast. didnt get to sing my fav song n time is up! ktv is my stress reliever.

(CY... he is with u, n he will not forsake u. YL.. he honors the decision u've made to stand firm. he honors ur faith. CG... he loves ur obedience n ur heart to wanna seek him. SY... he loves u as who he created u to be. he will transform ALL lives. mummy loves u all)

and i stand in awe of your love

dunno why.. just feel like posting my g12 photos today. just feel so love them, miss them, proud of them. you all are god's blessing for me. has stood n will stand by me always... i love u all!! looking forward to seeing u all and ur daughters everyweek. May god continue to unite our hearts so that we may seek him with ONE heart!

Today- jump off my bed at 8.50am when Cuishan called me. reached office at 9.30am.. late!

it's friday again. 2006 is moving at a very fast pace. too scary. before u know it, a quarter of the year is gone. what significant thing have you done in the past months? how many lives have you touched? have you been doing things to achieve ur dreams? if u have not done that. you had basically wasted alot of oxygen! get a life! come'on... what's your purpose on this earth? how can u help the multitudes of people crying for help? how can u invest your life into lives? or do u want to live in ur own world? simple act of love and concern gives people hope and a reason to live... all it takes of u is willingness and a heart of compassion. u dun have to be of great knowledge. u dun have to be of great wealth. all u need is a big heart for the world to make a difference.

Prayer session yesterday was good, we had yummy fried rice m chicken wings. Leesiang, lena, jaz, soktuan, joy, littlelamb n me attended. this is the first time we are gathered in such combination. felt abit weird at first coz i hardly know some of them. we introduced ourselves n our church, we ate n we prayed. I know that his pressence is with us and we will do it weekly. I pray that office salvation will come from this. i will win the youths here in DP.. and contribute to FCBC being the biggest youth church in singapore in a yrs time~

Love

and i stand in awe of your love

OTs after OTs, when will this ever gonna end?

This morning i prayed "God, please let me have an easy day today. i felt like i'm going to war every morning. it's tiring physically! let me have a day of rest" indeed, he hears n he answers. today i very relax, not rushing, just cadding some simple stuff... i'm happy.

Jaz (my director's scretary) ask me if i wanna do prayer session tomorrow lunch, i was taken aback coz she's not a believer. however she believes jesus exist. and of coz, i gladly agreed. i ask little lamb along. boss used to have prayer session every week but it has stopped since a yr ago. this time jaz initiated it and i was overwhelmed. gonna pray for many aspects, gonna pray for jaz. i believe god is going to visit us and minister to us powerfully even in the office. am excited for tomorrow - revival of god's work in DP... jaz cooking fried rice for us too! yeah!

Sarah sis... i'm so proud and encouraged by u! i also see a change in spirit in our BN12 after the G12 conference. the conquest spirit is in our midst, oh! by the way all my sisters, i have recorded every thing we shared yesterday. hahahaa... i shall hold all of u accountable. hee.. kidding la. just wanna tell all of u that u all are great blessings to me, i love u all!!! *hugs*

and i officially took 6 months off from 2-FOUR percussion band today. so that i can concentrate on my family n ministry. thanks Damien for being so understanding. nevertheless. i am still proud to be a part of the most happening band in singapore..... 2-FOUR rocks!!

and i stand in awe of your love

and i stand in awe of your love

G12 conference has been a great blessing to me. started on thursday night right till saturday night. it's great to see pastor cesar and claudia in singapore once again. dunno how to express my feelings man.. it was GREAT!!! all the time, ps cesar n claudia spoke in spanish. nice. i think it's really cool. their poise, their charisma, their annointing... wooh! i love it.. not forgetting our ever charming ps khong n ps nina.

loads of worshiping, loads of teachings, loads of love, loads of laughters...

let me blog about the most captivating, touching sceen of the night.
at the last session (after CY, YL, CG left), ps khong spoke about loyalty. about how he had been loyal to all his leaders in the past. and how he is loyal to ps cesar. he devoted the whole church to ps cesar... and said alot of touching stuffs that made me cry. then ps cesar ask us to pray for ps khong and the church. the next thing i knew when i open my eyes, i saw a chair on the stage. then ps cesar ask ps khong to sit on the chair, take off his shoe n his socks. then he said: " I ONLY DO THIS TO MY SON" n he began to kneel down and wash ps khong's feet (like how jesus washes his disciple feet before he was betrayed). tears just flowed. i'm simply so touched by the father's love. n immediately brought me back to jesus. how majestic he is, he is the king, he is god's son, yet he humbly washes his disciples feet... who am i that is worthy of such? who am i worthy for him to be hung on the cross? who am i... nothing but a sinner. only by grace, this sinner is redemned. (those who miss any sessions. pls borrow the vcd from dy)

the best worship - last session. my 3 daughters went right to the front. and i guess we all are just so happy to worship him. singing songs n dancing. unspeakable joy. esp with them beside me... indeed.. they are god's gift to me. n yes. i received a very lovely message after that.. thank u!

though super duper tired... but it's all worth it! i'm sure all who attended G12 conference this yr will rise up to become fruitful n to walk by faith n not by sight.

let's all be an overcomer!!! :)

with love...

and i stand in awe of your love

tomorrow is DOUGLAS last day. he's gone to do something that is more meaningful for him. he's the first colleague that lunch with me on my first day (28 months ago). we had a potluck celebration for him and there was tons of food. see that tray of chicken wings? it was toppled and it fell onto the floor... we ate it anyway. grose? ahhaaa... anyway. Douglas, all the best for the whatever thing you gonna do next! Hope to hear wedding bells ringing too! :) take care!!

knock off at 10pm. felt really tired. almost fell asleep on my computer. dy wanted to meet kenneth to pass him study notes. we talked outside kenneth house for an hour! kenneth, as usual is soooooooo funny. ohya!.. he wanted me to pass this message: "please buy LEVIs JEANs!!" coz he met with a bike accident n his leg were so bruised yet not even a single thread came out of his LEVIs jeans!! lots more jokes. its always nice toking to him... coz i can just laugh n laugh.. :) Got to know that he is actually studying for his exam!! i'm so happy for him~ atleast he's trying and want to achieve something this time! ended up reaching home at 12am. slept at 1am again but kenneth if u happen to read this. i wanna tell u that "YOU CAN DO IT!!" :)

and i stand in awe of your love

As promised... here are some i-DP photos. hmmm... editor is on strike ever since he came back from reservist (he keeps saying he needs to clear emails. it's been 2 days!!) so i had to do this myself. more photos are with him. maybe u all can get to know the members first. hahaha....

was alittle upset this morning regarding some issues. shall not mentioned here. whatever it is i believe all things will be put together for good. i trust in god... and he will surely prepare the way.

dinner time, little lamb saw her friends outside fila. and me? haha.. i got a bag from fila while waiting for her.. make me spend money again!

i'm so excited.. did i mention that i'm doing another church project? hee! surely its great to serve god while working.

love...

and i stand in awe of your love

it's monday. hahaaa... no comments on it. just not a perfect monday today.

ooo.. went for an 'interview' at this charity organisation called Knights... they are established recently and the provide financial aids to the needy family. they are not funded by government nor are they funded by big organisations. the income/funds comes from volunteers selling stuffs. n they are suppose to review my family case.. i'm quite skeptical though.. so kept praying on the way there. i was shocked when 3 staffs interviewed me (usually is one to one). then after the session, God is good.. he lead me to found out that they were from FCBC too!! hmmm.. however they had backslided... hmmm... maybe God wants me to pray for them. that's how god works right? always plan conincidences.

they actually need volunteers, and guys n gals, if u are interested, do let me know if u wanna help.. will share more informantion when they contact me again. time to serve the poor!

read yanling's blog. was brought back to my primary school days in Mountbatten Primary (tore down). primary was fun man! ahahaa... angeline, julia, huimin, faniel...... where are u gals? i miss u all... time to meet.. GOsh!! it's been 11 years since we did our PSLE.. coffee sometime?

Peeps.. pray for DY.. he has got 5 papers for exam.. :)

oh... vote for adriano!!! haha

Love

and i stand in awe of your love

Every week as i attend ps hee guan's SOL2, i felt so inspired. n my opinion of him changed totally... learnt alot of him, how to be a leader, how to lead a cell etc etc... :)

today's message. HOPE IS AN INSPIRATION TO FINISH THE RACE. 2tim4:7-8

it is important for us to dream, even when we are awake. Dream for GOD!
- when we dream for God - we live in the future.
- when we dream for God - we stay focus
- when we dream for God - we grow in faith

Had a great time talking to mum after service. thanks mum... love u!!
Sorry to CY, YL, YK and Christine... for making u all wait so long.. love u all too!!

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Saturday, March 11, 2006

hey! happy belated birthday to MURPHY, MARCIA and JILL.. u 3 are born on the same day! yeah!!! marcia... i miss u... where are u?

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!! RASHES!!! that's what i got when i reached home.

had a great time at Escape yesterday with my girls, kaiyee, brothers + sisters yesterday. We had a total of 16 people but we splitted into 2 groups... coz it's too big a group to move around. Had a great time laughing throughout the day. These girls are just so funny. Me and yanling went for the Wet n Wild ride which she made me sit behind so that i can be drenched by the water. FUN! just as we were queuing... we heard "i..l.o.v.e...y.o.u..." It was xiangwei shouting across when she's on viking. man... everyone was laughing. haha! then we went haunted house. n i think that was really pathetic. we were stuck at the door for around 5 or 10 mins. i hear nothing but sharp screams at my ear. gosh... they screamed all the way from the entrance to the exit. can u imagine me deaf? hahaa... but again. xiangwei was funny... scolding the statues.. overall just had a great time. it has been a long time since i'm out in the sun enjoying myself. :)

went pasta mania for dinner after escape with YL n XW n DY n KYee... tired, smelly and happy!
after dinner, DY, KYee n me went to C2max, 9th flr cineleisure. cool man!! entire space for lan gaming, internet gaming, xbox etc. we booked a room n watched dvd. hey girls.. i wanna bring u all there one day! let's arrange. i think u all will love it... i think la..

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and i stand in awe of your love

yesterday G12 meeting was good. felt very happy to see belle and other sisters.. which i have longed to see them, hear them. we shared our faith goals... and held each other accountable for it. here's some of mine:

Church
- To draw myself closer to God
- To see 6 committed members atleast by dec
- To be a blessing to many others

Family
- To see my brother saved
- To see God's miracle in my dad's life
- To see my family drawing closer to each other, breaking all the walls

Work
- To finish the "work" i need to do in DP n leave this place
- To be able to start a small business
- To be able to see that working is God's command.
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actually i was quite disturbed as i read my spiritual daughters' blog. i feel that i have so much more work to do. i am a happy mother now... but my dear daughters, when i start to discipline you, will u still obey and want to walk right with God? I am committed to ur lives.. are you committed to me? I want to see you all grow as strong women, as repectable women, as women walking right with God, as disciple makers and becoming more n more like Christ...

even when the whole world mock at you, know that ur father in heaven adores you!
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anyone wanna go escape with me tomorrow afternoon?? $4 each only! sms me... lets go have fun!

and i stand in awe of your love

no time to blog yesterday.

took half day to go hospital with dad for follow-up on the fingernail thingy. Praise the lord. that doctor says its healed and discharge. no need to go back for futher checkup already! :)

went to watch movie with the poly open cell members (dy, meishi, frans, jasper, anthony k, ivan n elias). supposingly catching Big momma hse but tickets was sold out. sadz. in the end we watched The Shaggy Dog. it was hilarious man... had a great time watching that brainless show. stress relieved. oh.. its also the first time watching movie with sister Meishi~!! we shall do that more often... =)

ok... that's for yesterday...

i'm going for G12 meeting now.. at TCT, dy is fetching me n he is here already.
miss my mummy belle.. long time nv talk to her. gonna see her now.. hee...

actually got alot of thoughts on some issue. no time le.. got to run. hope i'll rem to blog abt it.

take carez.

and i stand in awe of your love

i was very happy today! i proudly reached office at 8.50am and that's super unusual. i get to switch on the lights for my bay and my colleagues was shocked n they thought they were late when they saw me.. *bleah* i merely woke up on time that's all. =)

bought a cup of ice-tea from QijI and that got me abit cranky this morning. i talked nonsense, laughed for the least funny things and was hyper active. was it the ice tea or am i filled with the spirit of joy? search me..

burger king for lunch.. AGAIN.. n we asked the counter staff for coupons AGAIN... heehee... music in b.k rocks.. it rocks until i got super irritated. think something is wrong with their sound system. all the songs became high pitched. headache.. mood swing..

12.15am.. doing amberville now. toning the landscape plan.. quite satisfied with the colour. going home now. Zzzzzz......

and i stand in awe of your love

alright. i'm just super unhappy today because i did not get my OT pay for the past 2 months. question her, yet she can push the blame to everyone else, including my director n director's secretary. best. whatever. she promised that she will remember my claims this month. let's wait and see. but dun worry, i'm still not living on grass.

alot of things to blog about actually but i'm too tired. i'm still in office. its 10.30pm.

congratulations to Kaiyee n Caiyun for graduating from post encounter. u're on to the next level.. hee!! :)

had a wonderful time in church yesterday. was so touched as we worshipped. n yes.. my sisters and brothers u all look great on stage. had a few glimpse from the big screen. *clap clap* well done!

Siot yit receieved jesus yesterday.. and together with yanling n christine.. she has become the baby of god! baby needs to drink milk (read bible) n breathe (pray).. so babies.. jia you k! very happy for all of u. Caiyun must be happy too.. seeing more n more sisters.

dunno what else to blog le.. want to go home le.. write again.

and i stand in awe of your love

woke up at 6.30am for TU @ yuanching. still not feeling well. blogging at macdonalds now with all the orange people dominating the entire space. oh well.. if u wanna know how was the sessions, i would say... that's one of the most challenging class i'd come across. *phew* totally exhausted and saddened. exhausted because i have to repeat instructions again n again, yet no one was interested. poor jasmine, her morals were down right after my class. today's TU session is not the usual 'u can do it' session. its 'dare to dream'! Of coz... every thumbs up session is fun n is an unusual learning experience for both volunteers and the students. In dare to dream, students are challenged to dream for their future. they get to do this mutiple intelligence assessment to know more about themselves, more about their strength and weakness. there are 8 sections to this assessments: interpersonal, intrapersonal, visual, linguistic, music/rythem, body kinesthetic, naturalist and mathematical/logic. I scored the highest for interpersonal and music/rythem. that's so me isnt it? but i didn't talk much today as i wasn't feeling well..

also feel saddened when i felt so much for these 'hack care' students. i know that there's alot of hidden potentials in them just that they refuse to believe in themselves. refuse the love n concern we showered upon them. hopeless, aimless, lost are some of the works all i can describe them... feel sad for them.

keep praying for them throught out the entire session.. will still continue to pray. :) update again! may god bring light into their darkness...

and i stand in awe of your love

today I shall tribute to my i-dP members. Basically, i-dP is a magazine co. founded by Miss Tay Kaiyun, CEO. i-dP members have so far successfully kept me awake everyday from 9am - 6.30pm. well done! i-dP had uncovered many underground secrets, hottest news, gossips, rumors etc.. and is rated the best selling magazine in the history of DParchitects.

Members include:
Teo Sheng Long - Spokesman, the lady-killer that never fail to make girls say: 'he's soooooo cute' (ricky will love to wack him)
Ricky Lim - Speculator, joker, the one that is still waiting... for...
Edwin Tong - Creative Director, the black-face, most serious one in i-dP. he moonlight as debt collector
Terry Loh - Photographer, newest member...
Endang - Accounts manager, pretty babe, tbs's victim...
Jimmy Chen - Chief Miscellaneous, mr. nice guy...

u guys are just so funny. i just cant stop laughing at you all... i will be posting some of the best works from i-dP...(creative director went for reservist, photos are all with him) stay tunned! hee!! :)

and i stand in awe of your love

busy. very busy. super busy. super duper busy.

i was rushing for the presentation tomorrow morning. actually nothing to blog abt. coz from 9am - 11pm i'm working. so people out there who only OT one hour please don't complain k... not ur turn yet! was quite upset with someone just now, but i alright le.

actually meeting shirley for dinner tomorrow. she suddenly had sorethroat n so.. it was cancelled. pray that god will heal her. :) then caiyun also wanted to meet for dinner too coz she'll be going for the career exhibit. n i'm so happy when she say "ask yanling along so i can know her better" (christine, she doesnt know abt ur decision yet) *clap clap*

got to go home le. i-dP members. will blog about u guys another time.

take care everyone!

and i stand in awe of your love

elloz.

brought my dad to hospital to see a hand surgeon yesterday. many things went on in the hospital. All we did for 3 hours is waiting but i had a good time chatting with my dad while waiting. he kept telling me that he's gonna get well very soon and will want to do some small business. i was happy to see him gaining back his confidence. n this time... with FAITH... :)

finally get to see the doctor. at one look at my dad's swelling finger. he told us that a surgery is needed immediately to pull out the entire nail. a anaesthetic jab was given almost immediately. but the jab did not work on my dad. a 2nd jab was given. it still doesnt work on him. still the doctor went ahead to pull out the nail. *ouch* my dad was screaming away. i can imagine that pain... how can the doctor do that!!! I ask him if he cried, he proudly say: 'NO lah!" hahahaa... whatever it is. i'm so proud of him. he's so brave!

went for EJ288 meeting. heard a great testimony of how a teacher blessed her students with the bottle of water we took from the santification week. later that she found out her student's father was hospitalised and she offered to pray for his family. a week later, his father was healed and the boy is jumping for joy telling the teacher: "i know God healed my father!!" wow.. praise the lord!

and yes... finally i had a chance to sit down with my mother and sisters to share about our lives.. great time!!

and i stand in awe of your love

kaiyun
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